Internalised Homophobia is a real thing, and it’s one of the most destructive things LGBT people can suffer from.
Basically, you’ve been conditioned by cultural and religious input for so long that you “know” that being gay is perverted and sinful. You are convinced that anyone who is LGBT is sick and needs to repent or get professional help.
The problem is you are gay.
You repress and deny what you feel, because to admit that you are gay is in complete contradiction to your foundational beliefs. This produces cognitive dissonance (the state of having inconsistent thoughts, beliefs, or attitudes, especially as relating to behavioural decisions and attitude change) – often severe. Severe enough to produce mental health issues, often chronic depression and suicidal ideation.
The journey through this is tough, and far too many don’t make it. To make sense of this requires guts and determination, to look at the issue face on and start searching for the facts –
- facts about what being LGBT actually means
- facts about cultural and religious mindsets or paradigms
- facts about religion and it’s origins
- facts about our entire belief system
And it requires a willingness to have a “crisis of faith”, whatever that may look like.
But the good news is you are not alone! Millions of people are in the same boat. And the simple fact that you’ve made it this far proves you are far stronger than you think!
Love is the solution. And that’s not some empty platitude. Love has nothing to do with God or religion – it transcends everything. Love is the only thing that brings peace, joy and change.
Look for and embrace love – start within yourself.